embracing pregnancy

Today is 16 weeks....4 months pregnant. Crazy, that I am almost halfway there. I have heard both sides of story.....how people have LOVED being pregnant, and how people did not like it. I am not sure where I stand yet. Well, obviously I love the fact I will be having a daughter or son this August. What I mean is, I haven't really EMBRACED the body changes that are occurring. Maybe I will LOVE being pregnant when I have a more excitable baby bump.

What I have not yet embraced: people's personal comments, nausea, weight gain, lack of hunger (shouldn't I be more hungry??), my complexion, feeling fat, the "in-between" time,  and my ever slowly disappearing waistline.

I never got sick, so I never lost weight. I didn't have the horrible luxury like most women and barf my guts up, and losing 10 lbs. I have only, SLOWLY have been gaining weight. And, YES. I am guilty of judging my body on the numbers I see on the scale. I realize I am supposed to gain weight, I just haven't accepted it in my mind.

Foodwise: no cravings...except for a WAWA hoagie! AHHH! I try to ear healthy...er, or well healthier. I seriously eat like 3rd grader. Cheerioes & OJ in the morning, drink water, I snack on yogurt before lunch. Lunch usually consists of the usually PB&J sandwich, a bottle of water, applesauce, and cheezits. Maybe a mini snack before dinner, more water, and dinner is whatever I am in the mood for....which is usually nothing. Sometimes its soup, or grilled chicken. So its not like I eat unhealthy. I am just a really BORING eater.

My trip to Target definitely had a realization for me as I walked by the cute bathing suit display. No itty-bitty bikini bathing suit this summer for me. I am also in that "in-between" stage. My maternity clothes are too big, and my size 2 pants no longer fit. Its just frustrating. At least my favorite pair of jeans still fit!

Hopefully in the next few week, i'll start "embracing" my pregnancy more.